Thursday, January 12, 2012

All Grown Up

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

God reminders and blank, white icons

"For where two or three are gathered together in My name, I am there in their midst." 
Matthew 18:20

Today, I asked God for a reminder. God placed a desire in my heart as a child, a dream I dare not speak out loud (even if I have in partial whispers). But, to tell the whole dream in its' entirety might be lunacy to some. I have often asked God over the years to re-affirm this desire or take it away as free brain space is limited when you are raising 5-year-old triplets :).  

Today, I decided it was time to give up the dream. After all, I am possibly up for another surgery and have felt bad for at least two months now. I stare at a stack of paperwork that my new doctor will review over the next two weeks to determine if surgery is necessary. 

Today, I gave up-- for my dream was impossible. 

A few minutes later, my phone chimed and a text flew in from a friend. I noticed something strange on my home screen. 

A blank, white icon.

Now, I don't know about you, but I've never seen nor had a blank, white icon on my iPhone. I wouldn't know how to put one on there if I tried. I have no idea how it got there, but I pressed it. 

There staring me in the face was a blog written by another mom. The blank, white icon was her blog, which had somehow attached itself to my home screen. The dream I had just let go of was exactly what the blog was about. Over the years as I prayed over this dream of mine, God gave me Luke 1:37 as my scripture to stand on.


"Stand" is the word I chose for 2012 as my "one word." I only told a handful of people and didn't do any of the "one word" blog hops that happen every January. Yet, I still chose one.

As my eyes swam with tears, I saw it perched in the top right corner.
There sat my verse. 
"For nothing is impossible with God." Luke 1:37

{Thank you Lord, that even when I throw in the towel on my dreams, You hold them tight. For nothing is impossible with You. Thanks for the blank, white icon and heaven-sent reminders that You hear my every prayer, thought, and dream}.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Our Daily Bread

Yesterday my doctor told me that my Endometriosis was never going away, that I would always have the disease no matter what I did to stop it.

Yesterday, my friend was told that one of her newborn triplets had a 10% chance of survival.

Yesterday, my grandfather was taken back to ICU with Congestive Heart Failure.

Sometimes, in light of yesterday, we have to depend on God for our daily bread.

Today, I had a good day--my daily bread.

Oh, how we forget that those very words are how we are commanded to pray; commanded to the present.

Fully, wholly dependent on our Heavenly Father.

"Give us today our daily bread." Matthew 6:11

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Bible-based Financial Help in 2012

2012 is shaping up to be a very important year for our country. It only takes a few minutes of scanning national news reports or watching our political leaders to know that we live in very shaky times. And sometimes literally- the ground has been shaking in catastrophic ways. 

I will be the first to admit, just as our personal financial situation began to look up, it began to spiral downward. I just got a lot of my 2011 medical bills paid off and it appears that I am up for another surgery or two. 

The month of December is always hard because of Christmas and this year was no different. It's crazy how out of control my spending got, even when I was mindfully, willfully trying to cut back. I consciously thought about how to cut costs at every corner and still, the pain of the December statement. Ouch. 

To top it off, Robb's truck needed a new set of tires and our washer and dryer quit working all within the same week. Financially, it was a rough December. 

Yet, I still believe in the one, true God of Provision. 

I can look back at five years of living with triplets and see the hand of God. There is no "earthly" way that my family could provide for ourselves. But, God has provided for us- through the generosity of others, hard work, and His supernatural provision. 

He has provided. 

Yet, I began 2012 panic-stricken about our finances, about future surgeries, and my declining health (that doctors are still trying to figure out). Today, I had to lay it down. Bury the fear six feet under. It's easy to sit on the floor and cry "Why, me?" And it's also human to ask those tough questions. 

But, I still believe.

I don't know where you are financially, but I know one thing I will continue to do in 2012: honor God with our finances by tithing. 

Yes, I said it, tithing. 

Malachi 3:10 says "Bring all the tithes into the storehouse so there will be enough food in my Temple. If you do,"says the Lord of Heaven's Armies, "I will open the windows of heaven for you. I will pour out a blessing so great you won't have enough room to take it in! Try it! Put me to the test!" NLT

God actually entreats his children to test Him in this area- to trust Him. I love this promise from God. I always want to know the why and the reasons behind things in life. I can look at our finances, at the gifts we have been given, and I know without a shadow of a doubt that those gifts were set into motion by a loving Heavenly Father who took my prayer to heart. I might not ever be considered rich by the world's standard's, but I know that my provision starts with a relationship with Jesus, by trusting God with provision, by honoring Him with our finances, and then standing on God's word. 

In 2012, I am diving deeper into God's word. I am going to "stand"- not only for our financial security, but for my health, my family, friends, and our country.

Proverbs 3:9 says "Honor the LORD with your wealth and with the best part of everything you produce." NLT