Thursday, January 12, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Yesterday my doctor told me that my Endometriosis was never going away, that I would always have the disease no matter what I did to stop it.
Yesterday, my friend was told that one of her newborn triplets had a 10% chance of survival.
Yesterday, my grandfather was taken back to ICU with Congestive Heart Failure.
Sometimes, in light of yesterday, we have to depend on God for our daily bread.
Today, I had a good day--my daily bread.
Oh, how we forget that those very words are how we are commanded to pray; commanded to live...in the present.
Fully, wholly dependent on our Heavenly Father.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
I will be the first to admit, just as our personal financial situation began to look up, it began to spiral downward. I just got a lot of my 2011 medical bills paid off and it appears that I am up for another surgery or two.
The month of December is always hard because of Christmas and this year was no different. It's crazy how out of control my spending got, even when I was mindfully, willfully trying to cut back. I consciously thought about how to cut costs at every corner and still, the pain of the December statement. Ouch.
To top it off, Robb's truck needed a new set of tires and our washer and dryer quit working all within the same week. Financially, it was a rough December.
Yet, I still believe in the one, true God of Provision.
I can look back at five years of living with triplets and see the hand of God. There is no "earthly" way that my family could provide for ourselves. But, God has provided for us- through the generosity of others, hard work, and His supernatural provision.
He has provided.
Yet, I began 2012 panic-stricken about our finances, about future surgeries, and my declining health (that doctors are still trying to figure out). Today, I had to lay it down. Bury the fear six feet under. It's easy to sit on the floor and cry "Why, me?" And it's also human to ask those tough questions.
But, I still believe.
I don't know where you are financially, but I know one thing I will continue to do in 2012: honor God with our finances by tithing.
Yes, I said it, tithing.
God actually entreats his children to test Him in this area- to trust Him. I love this promise from God. I always want to know the why and the reasons behind things in life. I can look at our finances, at the gifts we have been given, and I know without a shadow of a doubt that those gifts were set into motion by a loving Heavenly Father who took my prayer to heart. I might not ever be considered rich by the world's standard's, but I know that my provision starts with a relationship with Jesus, by trusting God with provision, by honoring Him with our finances, and then standing on God's word.
In 2012, I am diving deeper into God's word. I am going to "stand"- not only for our financial security, but for my health, my family, friends, and our country.