Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Day 16: The Prayer that Changes Everything


I was on a walk with a friend a few years ago. I was barely hanging on. My health was so bad, I had not really been out of the house much that week. As we walked, I tried to hide my desperation, but it was a struggle to remain composed. We talked about little things while my mind tried to follow her conversation. My doctors were confused as to why I was sick every single day, and so was I. I didn't understand why I couldn't get an answer. Why the doctors themselves had no direction or idea? They would just send me home and I was miserable. Finally, she asked, "So how was your week?"  I struggled to give an answer, "Not good; the doctors just can't figure out what's wrong with me and I don't know what to do." That was the only sentence I could squeak out without totally falling apart. She didn't give a response, her phone rang and she was off to a more enticing event. I sat there dumbfounded on the street. I felt so isolated in my illness- this mysterious thing that choked life out of each day. And my only friend, didn't make time for a few sentences. I walked on alone. Or was I?

I cried the rest of the walk and unleashed some bitterness that had been building towards God. I had served Him to the best of my knowledge and I couldn't even make it 5 miles down the road to Wal-Mart. I had triplets to raise, a business to run, and obligations. It just seemed so unfair. I felt so abandoned that day when I prayed this prayer:

{Lord, why can't I get breakthrough in my health? No one seems to understand the pain I'm going through and You seem so far away. One of my only friends doesn't even care. Lord, I can't see, but You can. Please, bring the truth about my situation to the surface. Don't let it remain hidden. If I am separated from you, because of something I am doing wrong; show me. Your word says that "the truth sets us free," so send your truth. Do not let it linger or be hindered any longer. Do not let me live in darkness in regards to my health}.

God didn't drop the answer instantly into my lap. However, what I do know is that after I began to pray that prayer daily, breakthrough and diagnosis' from doctors began to pour forth. After praying the same prayer for a few months, I had been diagnosed with gluten sensitivity, adrenal fatigue, and major hormone imbalance. I continue to pray that same prayer over my life each and every day. 

{Lord lead me in truth, bring truth to my situation}. 

I believe that God honors those who earnestly seek Him. When you seek truth, you find Jesus. When you find Jesus, you find God. 

Jeremiah 29:13 says: 
{You will seek me and find me when you search for me with all your heart}. 

{It's the prayer that changes everything}.

{It is He who reveals the profound and hidden things, He knows what is in the darkness and the light dwells with Him.} Daniel 2:22

3 comments:

Dave Moore said...

I have found that when we are desperate if we will get on our face before God and pray desperately He will answer. He really hears our from the heart prayers. Unfortunately we usually want to throw it in the microwave and get it out quickly.

Kim said...

Just letting to know your post has prompted me to get up and do a walk and pray right now. Sometimes it is hard to pray the prayer "show me if there is something wrong with me..." I am a bit empty tonight...thanks again for the reminder.

lastingtransitions said...

Jeremiah 29:13 is deep, really deep, and probably one of the hardest things to do. What a verse!