Tuesday, July 12, 2011

When You're Beating Yourself Up

I'm not artistic. And that just might be the understatement of the year. Matter of fact, I found a train that Baby A crafted with tape, construction paper, and string that blows 29 years of stick people out of the water. 

I'm not organized. It took me 3 years to get all my bills filed into folders and put in the proper place and that was only yesterday in case you are taking notes. 

I'm not good with technology. Robb says I can mess up a piece of technology just by looking at it. I'm beginning to believe him. Don't you dare tell him that. His head just might swell like the mean 'ole grinches heart. 

I take pictures of my children that never make it off the SD card, although I love taking them in the moment. I'm not much for washing dishes, but I do love to cook. I love having dogs, but I love when Robb feeds and waters them. 

The truth is, we all have strengths and weaknesses. Wouldn't life be boring if we all looked the same?  Next week, I'll be 1 of over 600 women at a Christian conference-all with the desire to use our gifts for God. Will our gifts be different - yes! Will some of us share similar giftings - yes! 

It doesn't really matter which gift you have, as long as you are using what God gave you. If I'm not careful, and I take my eyes off of who God made me to be, I will start comparing myself to everyone else. 

And there goes my hamster wheel... "Oh man, what a HUGE testimony she has" or  "Wow, she speaks 5 languages and is a size negative 2" If one thing is for sure, comparison will get us into a pit faster than anything. We can't be who God wants us to be if our eyes are on everyone else. 
 Here is one of my favorite verses when I'm throwing my self-esteem up against the wall: 
"Let your eyes be turned to Him and you will have light, and your faces will not be ashamed." Psalm 34:5 Bible in Basic English

If you're struggling with finding your place in ministry and comparing your gifts with others, start by discovering your spiritual gift. Over the years, my spiritual gifts have changed slightly. One remains dominant, but my sub-gifts move around a bit. Everyone has at least one and some of you might have many. THIS site offers a great spiritual gift analysis and is the one I use. Consider what the Bible says about spiritual gifts in Ephesians 4:11-13:

"Now these are the gifts Christ gave to the church: the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, and the pastors and teachers. Their responsibility is to equip God’s people to do his work and build up the church, the body of Christ. This will continue until we all come to such unity in our faith and knowledge of God’s Son that we will be mature in the Lord, measuring up to the full and complete standard of Christ."  New Living Translation


The Roberts Family said...

What a great reminder!! Isn't it amazing how God created us each so differently? Looking forward to seeing you at She Speaks. Praying for your project!!! HE has a plan! Blessings, Shelly

Esther said...

have a great time at she speaks :)

Jessica Kirkland said...

Thanks Shelly. Can't wait to meet you.

And Esther - wish you could come this year! Maybe we can meet up in real life at a conference sometim in the future.

Donna said...

Wonderful messages. So glad I found your blog. I'm following now, hoping to learn from your messages. Thanks for sharing. Donna


I write book reviews and stories about my crazy life!

Jessica Kirkland said...

Thanks for stopping by Donna. I hope you come by often and I will certainly go check out your blog. I consider myself a "life story" writer as well.

SortaSuperMom said...

Great post! Found you off VB- following you now! Stop by my page anytime!

lastingtransitions said...

I ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE with the first sentence. Art comes in various guises - you are a terrific writer and photographer. Keep it up!

Gina @ MommyPosh.com said...

Great post...thanks for sharing..following you from vB!

Dayna Musto said...

Hi there - inspiring and thoughtful post. I love how the versus fit just perfect. Visiting from VB.

Momma Teacher Lady said...

Love this!

hotairballoonmom.com said...

This post reminds me of a life-changing experience... Last year - I was thanking God for my 21-yr old's personal growth - how I'd finally had a great suggestion to guide him along. In my heart of hearts - not audibly, but loud & clear, I heard: "Stop beating yourself up over (Preacher Child), He's MINE"
And so are we :)

Anna, from vB