Saturday, June 4, 2011

Holding On

We emptied a garage today and 1/2 of a bedroom. It's amazing how much stuff can collect in 4 years. I packed preemie clothes from the days of 3.2, 3.4, and 3.8.  
I threw away garbage bags full of knick-knacks and McDonald toys. 
 Oh the things we hang on to!
This opportunity came unexpectedly to our family, but I have such great peace about the situation.  I wish I could tell you every detail about the movement of God in our lives.
 I wish you could know or have lived in my prayer life for the last year to understand what I mean. 

God is moving us forward. 

This move is not just physical for me, it's symbolic of a chapter of life closed.
  I wander back five years and remember a similar place.  
Pregnant with quads.
Fearful of the unknown.
Wandering how we could afford these children.
Buying a house.
Selling a house.
Losing a baby.
Almost losing myself.
Changing jobs.
Changing towns.
Changing houses.

But, God was with us. 
In Romans 8:31 the Bible says:
"What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?"
So many times over the last few years, I wondered about all the circumstances stacked "against us."  The likelihood of delivering healthy babies, the ability to provide for them financially, the strain that multiples can bring to a marriage (the stats are stacked against a family like ours)...the list could go on for miles. 

But, God was with us.
He was and He is with my family and yours. 
God wants to move us both forward. Maybe it means letting go or stepping out. Maybe it means changing your habits or changing careers. 
Don't linger.  
Think about it. 

As children of God, we can know with certainty that when we 
1. Confess with our mouths Jesus as Lord,
2. Believe in our hearts that God raised Him from the dead
3. We shall be saved. 

Salvation through Christ is the only move that you need to make.  
Because when God is for you, who dare stand against you?
His power is great. His love is even greater. 

Tonight, I hold onto but one thing: gratefulness.  


He Knows My Name said...

Hmm. I cam across you from Sheryl Moderdyk's fb. My husband lost his job. We exhausted most all of our savings. Found a job in Arlington Texas. We have a home with 34 years of stuff. Our adult son still lives with us. Our unmarried daughter with our grandson lives 2.2 miles from us. He is 4 and I watch him most every Tuesday. Our life has gone from being a predictible day to day to being so confusing and heart wrentching. We are able to maintain him there and me here but it is tearing me apart and it has only been 4 months. I don't know how our military wives do it. Change for me is VERY difficult. We don't know which way to go right now. He has tried to get closer to home with another job and now that is possible in Ohio but our hearts just don't know what to do. It is still not home. I would love to know more about your story.

Janel Calamia

Jessica Kirkland said...

i left you a message on your blog. thanks for the sweet comments.

Renata said...

Hi Jessie
I found your blog through the multiples and more link up! I hope this move goes well for you & that God will continue to guide you through life. I know that I would never have thought we would ever be here on our farm & homeschooling our children, but I am so glad that God has guided us here.
Thankyou for your reminder to be grateful - I needed it today
Have a wonderful day

lastingtransitions said...

What a great blog article! You have surely harnessed the power of eliciting emotion through the written word.
I wish you the best on your move. In a way, moving is very exhilarating, and I can sense some excitement amidst your words. Although, I can also sense some uncertainty as well, but don't fret, that's normal for everyone no matter how confident a move it might be.
God is giving you a new start somewhere, how exciting! Cherish these days!

Jill said...

i love this post, jessie..thanks for reminding me how awesome God is.

found you from the link up :)

Jen said...

found your blog from multiples and more :)
I LOVE and adore your heart for the LORD! I immediately smiled and rejoiced that through hard time, we still know HE is bigger and has better plans than we could ever know!

Praying for you today.

Jessica Kirkland said...

Renata - Thank you so much for coming by. I hope you will keep coming and always leave me a message. I love to hear from readers. You are right, I could have never imagined that my life would look like this - but I would never change any of it. I can only imagine homeschooling is quite a task - but so much good in it. What state are you in?

Jessica Kirkland said...

Thanks Paul! I can always count on you - such wise discernment. Yes, I am so excited about the move. There is uncertainty, but I'm ok because I know God has gone before us. The only thing missing is a little adopted girl from South Korea or twins...know any of those? LOL

Jessica Kirkland said...

Thanks Jill for stopping by. I appreciate the sweet words.

Thank you Jen for the prayers. I would never turn those down! Love making friends in the blogosphere. Yes, you are right. He keeps reminding me that His plans for my life are much greater than anything I would ever give myself. He is an AWESOME God.

He Knows My Name said...

Fast forward from that blog post in June and in just a few weeks about August 1 we had a solid job offer back home! Came out of of the blue as we were driving to Ohio to take a job where he could drive home on weekends. God brought this one and only job offer in our home state, 45 minutes from home and a wonderful salary and we are together again as a family. Oh my we are blessed. Thanks for your note to me it was so appreciated.