Thursday, September 9, 2010

Mi Amor

I am still laughing.  My sister called one of our local Mexican restaurants to place a to go order and did the unthinkable.  Seriously, funny.  You know how you get in the habit of saying "okay love you bye" to your loved ones? Well, it most certainly slipped out after she placed her nacho order.  She told the boy that took her order "okay I love you talk to you later."  I giggle at the thought of his response.  I giggle harder at the thought of us seeing him next time we are dining in. Sorry Aunt G, that was just too funny not to share.  She was mortified to say the least.  I would have been so embarrassed.  I might not have ever been able to dine in again. 

Embarrassment.  I don't know if it's just me, but I suffer with a serious case of "do not embarrass me."  I get embarrassed so easily it's ridiculous.  Today, my friend and I, had our first prayer meeting.  I am so grateful for her in my life.  I have been praying over the last year for a good friend.  My best friend lives in Louisiana and we do not get to spend much time together because of the distance.  You probably remember her from THIS post. And although I have plenty of acquaintances, my need for a close girlfriend has been great.  Then,  God sent me a new friend from clear across the world.  Columbia actually. She's tiny and tan and has a cool accent. I'm large and pasty white with a Southeast Texas twang if twang is even a word.  I feel like we have been friends for a lifetime.  She asked if we could start praying once a week and I am so grateful.  
Fear of Embarrassment.  
We talked about that a little bit today.  Satan loves to use fear of embarrassment to keep us from God's best.  When my stomach problems started in college, I was just plain embarrassed to tell anyone.  I was too embarrassed to tell a doctor even, and when I finally did talk to a doctor and they told me that everything was fine; I was too embarrassed to push them for another answer.  Are you like that or is it just me?  When I look back over a lot of what is now my testimony, I see that "fear of embarrassment" has held me back at times, stolen my joy, hindered my health, and in general kept me in darkness. 

 I have a feeling that some women out there might be able to relate.  Yes?  How does fear of being embarrassed hold you back in life?  

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7


martha said...

Great post! Yes satan uses fear very effectively to paralyze believers. In fact it is probably #2 in his bag of tricks. I love your posts. Keep us empowered through your testimonies and observations.
God bless.
Martha in Raleigh

Jessica Kirkland said...

Thanks for reading Martha and for the encouragement! You are right, fear is always Satan's first line of attack for me personally. A preacher told me something that has helped me anytime I am afraid. He said FEAR is "False Evidence Appearing Real." Kind of takes the bite out of fearful situations when you look at it that way.