Monday, July 19, 2010


*My 30th birthday is in a month and 2 days. I thought I would take a look back at my heart as I approached my 29th last year.*

My twenty-ninth birthday is approaching.  In another year, I will wrap up an entire decade of my life.  There is something eerily unsettling and final about looking back on a decade of your life.  I never wanted to be a teacher, but I find myself wanting a grade.  I know how I would grade myself (never give a perfectionist a red pen).  I might give myself an A for effort, and it would probably be down hill from there.  Yet, lately, I wonder how God sees this decade?  When I look back through my twenties the road is marked with change.  Wow. What a decade.  I went to college okay I really went to three colleges.  I married.  I have lived in six cities to date.  I have had eight anniversaries. I have three children that are all the same age.  I got a degree. Chose a career. Started a business. I had labels given to me in my teenage years ripped off and new ones stuck on.  I have gained friendships and lost friendships. My twenties have been wild.  Wildly hard.  Wildly joyful.  Wildly beautiful and scary.  This decade has been just like that hour glass; sometimes I viewed it as empty other times overflowing with joy and contentment.  Mingled in with those hard times have been some of the biggest spiritual revelations of my twenty-two years of knowing Jesus.  Even though painful times beg to brand our memories, overshadowing the joy and triumph in life, I would not trade them or wish them away.  It is in those times that I got to know Jesus more intimately. Before my twenties, my relationship with Christ lacked depth.  In my twenties, His character came alive and He became my best friend. He has been my...
Savior: He saved me from death.
Healer:  He healed me from sickness.
Deliverer:  He delivered me from darkness.
Counselor: He instructed me in the way I should go.
Friend:  He was there, when others did not understand.
This decade has made an impression.  The good news?  No matter how we view ourselves, failures and successes alike, God loves us.  God does not wait with a red pen to mark up the pages of our lives.  He only cares about one kind of red and one kind of footprint.  Do we know His Son?  Are the pages of our lives covered in the red blood of Jesus?  Are our pages redeemed?  Are the footprints merely our own or has our sand been littered by the footsteps of Jesus?  Nothing else really matters.  Weeks turn to months, months turn to years, and eventually we wrap up decades.  We chase dreams, chase people, chase goals, and through all that God is chasing us.  He wants to redeem the bad and turn it to good.  So, put your red pen down.  Open your eyes and look back at your life.  No matter what grades you have given yourself, God has but one grade: Have you accepted His Son, Jesus, as Lord of your life?

"If you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you shall be saved; for with the heart man believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation." Romans 10:9-10


RR Mama said...

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Jessica Kirkland said...

thank you. Blog Fairy did a great job on the design. Exactly what I was wanting. And thanks about the post. thanks for reading. your avatar is cool too.