...right, but it didn't stop me. With full knowledge I still did it. I knew what it would do to me. I knew the pain I would feel. Yet, deep down some part of me was in a temporary state of denial. The two wrongs...green tea and grated cheese. "This girl is off her rocker," one might say. "For whatever could be wrong with green tea and grated cheese!"
Saturday, July 18, 2009
What all Southerners love almost more than life itself is a good 'ole glass of sweet tea. Call it green, black, cold-brewed, or high noon; we all cannot get enough of that sweet nectar. BUT, when one becomes allergic to tea at 27 years of age, dreams of consumption are smashed to bits. It's been three months since "tea" showed up on my food allergy list. Once a month I try to "add it back" as my doctor told me to and my body keeps rejecting it over and over and over again. It's not liquor I desire....it's TEA! Caffeine filled with only a few tablespoons of sugar, and maybe a dash of lemon. Is that too much for a girl to ask for?!??!?! Apparently so.
And then, there is grated cheese. What is the difference between grated cheese and block cheese? Ding, ding, ding! Flour for 200! Block cheese and I have shared several memorable moments over the last 4 months. Grated cheese is a no-no for those of us that suffer from wheat allergies. Grated cheese, although bagged and beautifully portrayed on the cheese aisle, is toxic due to the fact that flour is added as an anti-caking agent. Makes sense. No one wants finely grated cheese that is stuck together in a clump. That makes for lumpy block cheese, not finely shredded and ready for consumption.
I know these things, but last night all knowledge of these facts fell prey to my desire to just conveniently forget and "eat it anyway." I temporarily deceived myself with sentences like "But, you ordered the Pollo Mexicano potato and forgot to tell them no grated cheese on top, you cannot take it back!" And..."you haven't had tea of any sort for 30 days, maybe it won't make you sick!" And..."Look how good your potato looks smothered in mexican cheeses, it would be such a shame to pick it all off!"
Self-deception. It always seems okay in the moment. But, once it takes root bad things began to happen. Pain will surely always follow. In this case, pain of the physical kind. With just one bite of the forbidden fruit in the Garden of Eden, Adam and Eve's eyes were opened and they knew they were naked. They believed the devil and they willingly gave up paradise. One bite is all it took, one thought that they knew better than their Creator.
One bite was all it took me as well. I knew I had deceived myself again! The ulcers formed on the roof of my mouth with the first bite and the worst migraine of my life ensued about an hour later. Torment for hours. I wanted to disconnect my head from my body! And today, that all too familiar nausea and stomach pain has been my companion.
Yes, it is still true. Two wrongs don't make a right, especially for myself, grated cheese, and a sweet glass of green tea.
Posted by Jessica Kirkland at 11:29 AM