Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Tales from the Crib: Skeeter Bugs

Lately, my children have started using the "F" word. Each night after I tuck them in, I hear the pitter-patter of tiny toes speedily walking to the door of their room. I wait for the call and inevitably the complaint is the same: Fear. Their "fear list" is growing- fear of the dark, fear of unknown noises, fear of dogs barking and choo-choo whistles. I am saddened by their loss of comfort. They are growing up. And although I try to proof their little worlds of anything that would steal their joy and hurt their minds, I find that fear finds its' way through the cracks.

Tonight, I heard the pitter-patter of Leyton's cube shaped feet :) speedily running across his room. Tonight, his list grew to include "skeeter-bugs." Apparently, there was a floater in the room. One sneaky, skeeter bug that kept carefully eluding my eyes. Invisible to me, but scaring the mess (literally) out of my toddler! To no avail, everytime I got him back in bed, the floater buzzed passed his head looking for fresh skin. In actuality, that "skeeter-bug" was small, but its' buzz made it seem much, much bigger.

I can relate.

We talked with our youth girls on Sunday night about fear. False-Evidence-Appearing-Real. Fear is something I struggle with as well. Financial fear, fear about my health, my children's health, fear of rejection, fear of failure - oh how my list could tumble on. The truth is that fear is irrational. One thing I have learned about fear is that it can only be overcome by the word of God. As much as I have tried, self-determination and rationalization have never worked in overcoming fear (matter of fact that only made me focus more on my fears). Sometimes the buzz is so loud and the night is so black that we can be completely disillusioned. But, when we shine the light of God's word on our situations, we can see that a big buzz may only mean the presence of a tiny skeeter bug.

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7